I've been attending Rolling Hills since third grade, six years. I've spent six years of my life at this school, with the people I consider to be a part of my family. Sometimes when I'm just wondering about my life and what I'm going to do with it, I start thinking about all of the people I've met and how they will remember me. Now, I know everyone in my class and most of the middle school "know me," but sometimes I wonder how well they really "know me"? I guess what I want to leave behind is myself. I want my classmates to look back on Rolling Hills and think of me not just as the girl with brown hair who dances. I want people to know what I support and believe and dream. I want not only this school to know, but the whole universe. My sister, Megan, inspired me with a one act play she wrote about a girl and how she was like a puzzle with a lot of pieces, it made me realize that I'm quite a confusing puzzle, with lots of weird pieces, and I want everyone to be able to finish it. I want people to know that I'm a strong Democratic, Atheist, Feminist, Humanist, gun law awareness, family, fairies, magic and Neverland believer. I've got a lot of pieces, and I want everyone to know about them.
My entire family is full of Democrats and Atheists. We are all very hippie liberal people who don't fit in politically with Idaho, but we couldn't give any less of a crap. When it comes to my opinions and beliefs you better not start attacking them because I will fight back. Most people know from one of my presentations from this year, the differences between beliefs, I am very respectful towards other beliefs and opinions. I would never tell someone they are wrong about that sort of thing, it's a very personal topic and to straight up tell someone that they are wrong or "stupid" because they believe in something you don't is completely wrong and insulting. I would never and will never do that to someone ("American Atheists"), ("Panchen Lama's Dorje Shugden Puja text").
Lots of people tell me I have a very good public face. If someone is annoying me, I am very good at hiding it and being very polite and civil, but if you come for what I believe in, you better be scared. I will always stick up for my opinions no matter what. Yes, they might change over the years because I am still learning and figuring out who I am. For the time being though, this is who I am, and I would not suggest attacking me for it. I've dealt with too much of that feeling of being the odd man out, when everyone is talking about what they believe in, and why, and I'm the only one who is different. I used to hate that about myself and would lie, but now I love it. It's my favorite quality about myself, the fact that no matter what I am unique.
I am a Feminist, Humanist who believes that everyone should be treated equally no matter what gender you are, what you look like, who you date, who you marry, I don't care and nobody else should. I think many people in my class know about this feature of mine. Just like with politics and beliefs I will stick up for myself and others who are being mistreated. I like to get involved it's a curse and a blessing, you could ask anyone of my friends, and they would tell you the same thing I am the "peacemaker," my family says it too. From a very young age, I always found myself gravitating towards very flamboyant over the top people. I have always loved that confidence that they have and that ability to just be themselves, I envied that. But now I feel like I can proudly say I'm one of them (Reisman-Brill, Granados, & Newman).
Flamboyant people often have this habit of started getting involved in drama; I never had this quality, I hate it. So being my annoying little self I always felt the need to fix it and help the people involved, this, in turn, would get me involved, and it caused a lot of hurt. Now that I'm older I've realized it's not always my responsibility to fix it; it's not fair to myself. I've found that it's entirely selfish for my friends to expect me to fix it, like its ok for them to drop all of their trash and expect me to pick it up. It's partly my fault; I gave them that expectation. But I think my friends are getting better about knowing that I'm not their trash can. But at the end of the day it never really matters because I still love them just the same and I always will.
I'm not going to talk about this too much because it's a vast topic and I don't want to write a whole other essay about it, so I will make it short and sweet. Gun law awareness is a huge topic right now. We have been having many problems at the moment. I don't support guns I think of them as living breathing objects that have the power to cause a lot of heartache and destruction. I recently participated in the March for Our Lives protest at the capitol building; it was so inspiring, some fantastic speakers participated. One life is more valuable than all of the guns in the world, that's all I'm going to say about that ("March For Our Lives"), (The New York Times "March for Our Lives Highlights: Students Protesting Guns Say 'Enough Is Enough'" 2018).
I believe in magic; it's as simple as that. No, I'm not one of those crazy people who believe in conspiracy theories and that aliens abduct people and probe them, no. I believe in the unknown and the fact that there are so many possibilities and so many things we haven't gotten the chance to see yet. I believe that fairies exist , and I oh so desperately want to be with them. Here's a quote that I love "The universe is full of magical things, patiently waiting for our wits to grow sharper." I love this because it's true. We have barely touched the surface of what beauty and magic our world has to offer.
"Let's go to Neverland, and never come back till forever ends."-Wendy. What's after this life, what's after this world. Now, for me being an Atheist I don't believe in Heaven or Hell and those big white gates that open for you on a cloud or something. I believe in the unknown and the fact that I get to make up what comes after. In my little fantasy land, I call it Neverland. No, Peter and the Lost Boys aren't there, and neither is Captain Hook. All that's there is an adventure and pure beauty. A place where I can fly, and talk to mermaids, and fairies, and run forever and ever. Fight off dragons and goblins, and be free, truly free. That is my afterlife, that is my dream.
I'm a very peculiar thing, and I love it. I have no problem with just being myself, and laughing my butt off at my jokes, and laughing my butt off at other people's jokes, and smiling every time I see Tom Hiddleston, and being the peacemaker, sometimes! I love being a weirdo with my friends, and hanging out with my family, not only my blood-related family but the family I have known to love at Rolling Hills. Yeah, everyone annoys me sometimes, it's honestly impossible for me to not get annoyed with you, but the people who annoy me the most are probably my best friends. Life is quite the drive, it has twists and turns and flips, and every once in a while, you get in a crash. But, as long as you have your friends and family its always ok because you can still make a party out of it. I am a strong democratic, Atheist, feminist, humanist, gun law awareness, family, fairies, magic, and Neverland believer who doesn't want to grow up, but knows it has to happen. So, let's make it interesting.